Wow. I almost forgot I had this thing. I guess I just haven't had much to say until lately. But now I do.

See, I used to have this friend, Jodie. She was a little needy, kind of annoying, and a clueless smartass, but she could be cool when she wasn't whining about something stupid like how her internet boyfriend was cheating on her with a tree of some shit like that.But a couple of months ago I started excersizing and eating right and I started to lose weight (I've gone from 160 to 125 now) and of course I was excited about it, so I told Jodie about it. At first she seemed happy for me. She even asked me for tips so she could lose weight to. So I gave her some. She asked me how much she should lose, so I calculated her BMI. She's 5'1" and 140 pounds, so her BMI is 26.4, which is overweight(Underweight = <18.5 Normal weight = 18.5-24.9 Overweight = 25-29.9 Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater) So she started exercing and I encouraged her, but NEVER did I tell her she HAD to do anything. She asked me. All I told her is what she asked me to and nothing else. And one day she got mad at me over nothing and we stopped talking. A couple months later, someone made a post saying that they lost 3 pounds and Jodie reponded with this:

You know that you can stop now. 135 is normal. Hell, 140 is normal. Unless you're going for the skinny thing, then you can stop at 115 or 120.

Ok, fisrt of, who the fuck is she to tell someone what thier normal weight is? Normal weight is different for everyone, which I pointed out to her when I said this:

Wrong. It depends on how tall you are. Say, if you're 5' 4" or a bit taller, 140 is normal weight because that means your BMI is 24.0, which is normal(Underweight = <18.5, Normal weight = 18.5-24.9, Overweight = 25-29.9, Obesity = BMI of 30 or greater), but if you're say, 5' 2" or shorter 140 would be overweight or even obese. "Normal" weight is diffrent for everyone, but even if you don't want to lose weight, eating right and exercising are still important things to do.

Which is true. Then she freaked out and said this:

Blah, blah, blah. Words. Just because it means everything to you doesn't mean that everyone has to follow it.

What the hell is wrong with her? She acts like this is some shit I read out of Cosmo, but it's not. This is what DOCTORS say your body weight should be at. They also say you should exercise at least 30 minutes a day. My health is important to me, so sue me. Just because she gave up doesn't mean I'm a bad person for sticking with it. And she shouldn't be telling people that being overweight is ok, because it's not. And I'm not saying this from a looks standpoint, but from a health one. You don't have to look like a supermodel, you just need to be healthy. So I said this:

Well that was rude. I didn't say you had to follow it. I was simply stating that exercising and eating right were part of a healthy lifestyle and that your statement was false. Normal weight is different for everyone. The only reason you said what you did is because you're insecure about YOUR own body but are too lazy to get off you ass and do something about it.

So she responded with this:

Haha. More words. I haven't spoken to you in months Kira. You don't know me anymore because I'm different.

I'm not insecure about my weight at all. But I was getting tired of your obsession with losing yours. And I see that that is still strong.

Took me some time, but I'm alright in my own skin, thank you very much. But I will say that last year, I wasn't. New year, new prospective. Dropped alot of jerks.

First off, she can't even remember my name, because it's not Kira. How can you forget someone's name in 2 months? Also, she's obviously not comfortable in her own skin or else she wouldn't be dogging me for losing weight. And where does she get off saying I have an eating disorder? I dropped all the weight in a healthy way, so that's a BIG lie, which I pointed out to her:

I'm not obsessed with losing weight. I was out of shape, I got winded easily and I wasn't eating very healthy, nor was I at a healthy weight for my size or age. So I did something about it. When I changed my lifestyle, the weight came off. I still excersize regularly because, believe it or not, YOU'RE ACTUALLY SUPPOSED TO! Exercizing is something that your body NEEDS to be healthy, but a lot of people are too lazy to do it. I'm not that interested in the effects that working out and eating right has on my looks. I'm more interested in the effects it's had on my health.

So then she changes her story and sayss that I pused her to lose weight, which is a LIE. She asked me and I just gave her tips. I wasn't sticking my finger down her throat and chaining her to the treadmill. I only knew her over the net, so I had no idea what she looks like until recently(and she's not the best looking person on the planet, to say the least). I couldn't have told her she needed to lose wieght unless she TOLD me she did. And again, she's acting like I'm telling her crap from Cosmo or something, but I'm not. So I said:

Thats a load of bullcrap Jodie and you know it. First of all i was excited to see results. Can you blame me? I was proud of myself for sticking to it. And I didn't say you had to do anything. You told me that you wanted to lose weight and you asked my how much I thought you should lose and how you should do it. I only TOLD you because you asked me. I was just trying to help. I didn't even know what you looked like at the time so it's not like I could have said "You need to lose 20 pounds" without you telling me how much you weighed. You asked me for help and I gave it to you. Stop getting mad at me because you gave up because it was too hard.

She responded:

I'm not mad at you. But it is obvious you are mad at me. I gave up because I realized I looked fine, not because it was too hard. Is it so unwordly for someone to decide they are fine the way you are?

Good. I'm happy for you. I'm happy you lost all that weight and were able to do it. I really am, because I noticed it was important to you. That's why I cheered you on. mentioing what you did does not mean I;m taking back how I was about it, I was just pointing it out. You have serious unresolved anger towards me.

Oh. So saying I have an eating disorder is cheering me on? Could have fooled me. And if some was sying shit like that to you, wouldn't you get mad? Especially someone who used to be your friend. So I let her have it?

Don't change your story now. Yeah, I'm angry at you, and I know exactly why. Have you not read all the untrue things you just said about me? You freak out like that on me every time I or someone else points out the fact that you're wrong. I don't like you because you're a know-it-all, who actually doesn't know anything.

Then she tried to make me feel bad, which didn't work. I gave up after she said this:

Personal attack.

YOu just love to a person out in the open. I never acted like I know-it-all. Especially not with you. I took your every word into consideration. I thought you were the coolest, smartest person ever. I talked about you to everyone and I always held on to your advice.

So I guess you didn't know me that well.

It kinda sucks how your own friends try to keep you down when you try to do something good for yourself. I guess it makes them feel bad about themselves when they see you bettering yourself. I know I'm not the only one this has happened to. You hear stuff all the time about the same kind of thing, people ditching their friends when they lose weight, or come out of their shell, and especially when they become successful of famous. I think it really needs to stop.

I seem to be having arguements with idiots(uaully named Corey) lately. I just wish he'd leave me alone, but whenever I try to make a post on the message boards he tries to pick a fight with me. I found out he's a racist and a woman hater, he just won't admit to it. He claims that "black people get more than white people", which is bullshit, and that rap isn't degrading to women. No matter HOW much proof I have he still won't admit he was wrong. He says it's OK for rappers to treat women as usless sex objects because there are some songs where women talk about men that way and that men quote "don't get all offensive about it". What kind of bullcrap is that? I haven't NEARLY as many of those songs where men are treated like object as vise versa. I bet if I told him to name 5 he couldn't. And how does that make it ok? He suck a fucking asshole I can't believe I was ever friends with him. All our argument usually end in me giving up because I'm tired of making the same points over and over again and him just being an ass and coming up with dumb excuses or chaging the subject. Because like my dad said "Don't argue with fools, because passersby might not know the difference".

If you found a genie in a lamp, like in "Aladdin", and he granted you 3 wishes, what would you wish for? Keeping in mind, thae same rules the genie gave Aladdin. You can't make anyone fall in love with you, you can't wish for more wishes, and you can't bring anyone back from the dead. If that happened to me, my wishes would be as follows:

 

1. All the money I could ever need in the world whenever I want it.

That way, I could use the money to buy all the material things I want, so I don't waste any wishes on them.

 

2. Mind powers

And when I say mind powers I mean ALL of them. ESP, teleportation, telekinesis, mind control, mind reading, all that jazz. Hey, I may not be able to wish that the person I love will fall in love with me, but if I wish for mind powers I can do it myself. And I can control the minds of all the people in the world who have power *cough**George Bush**cough*, which means things get done the way I want them to be done. And I can teleport myself to wherever I want to be in an instant.

 

3. I don't die/age until I decide I want to. Same with my family members and friends ( they get to decide, not me)

I would have just said I live forever, but in all those stories where people wish for stuff like that, they always end up regretting it. Plus what's the point of living if you're an old, wrinkled up prune who can't move because you're bones are so old and brittle even just lifting a finger would cause all the bones in your body to shatter? That's why I decided i don't age or die, until I want to. So if I decide that life sucks and there's no point in living anymore, I can die instead of being miserable.

 

That's it for my three wishes. Too bad I won't ACTUALLY find a genie, but hey, a girl can dream. What would you wish for?

Yes, I know murder is bad, but what's the point of keeping stupid people around? They don't do anything, they just piss people off and take up space, so why not just kill them? It'll make people's stress levels go down so less innocent people will get killed. I think it's a good idea. When I take over the world I will make it legal to kill morons.

I need new music to listen to. I mean, I got 6 new CDs for my birthday and the holidays, but I'm already bored with them. I wish some actually GOOD hip hop artists would come out of the woodwork. All this stuff now isn't rap, it's crap. Especially that "Laffy Taffy" song. UGGGG!!!! How can people LIKE that song! It's so annoying!! And all those other southern rap songs. I don't want to hear ANYMORE songs about asses, bling, cars, killing people, or being a "gangsta". What happened to when hip hop was actually creative and fun or deep? Now it's all EXACTLY the same! Same beat, same lyrics, same crap. The only rapper that I feel are worth mentioning are Common, Kanye West, Outkast,  and Lauryn Hill. The actually rap about things most of us can relate to and it usually has substance and sometimes a message. And I like  the Black Eyed peas. But the thing about the Black eyed peas is that they sing about some of the same stuff that I was just talking about, but at least they're CREATIVE! Same thing with Outkast sometimes. If you're going to do that at least have your own style insead of doing the same thing as everything else. No one has any creativity anymore. It's sad.

Diets suck. They're so hard to maintain. I mean, I can deal with the exercising. I make sure I do that everyday, but it's watching what you eat that's really hard. I love food. I love cooking food, I love the smell of food, but most of all I love EATING it! And all the good stuff is bad for you. It really sucks. I always end up cheating on my diet. If only there was a way have your cake and eat it too. Literally.

I can't believe the year is almost over! They go by so quickly, don't they? It's almost scary. But a new year = a new me! I'm actually starting to get in shape. I hate workinmg out though. It's hell. I need a new hairstyle too. And some new clothes. My clothes are pretty plain. I need some that really express my personality. And my hair is.... I don't know. It sucks. I need to do something drastic with it, like dye it purple. my mom would never allow it though, so I'd have to do it behind her back. Ih well, I'll figure it out eventually.

Happy birthday to me!!! I must say it was a very good birthday, even though I had a piano recital. Yesterday I had a perty and 3 of my friends and I went to go see "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe" and had pizza afterwards and slept over. It was a lot of fun. I got a lot of cool presents, including a really cool digital camera.  Too bad my birthday's almost over. Now I have to wait a whole year until my next one.

Gosh, today's popular music is just so crappy. I mean, there's no variety. The record companies never care about talent anymore. They just want to capitalize on a trend. And the artist that actually DO have talent never get airplay on the radio or MTV or anything so no one gets to hear them. All the bands sound the same/ And their 'fans' aren't really fans. They don't buy their CDs, they just download their single that's popular at the moment and wear their T-shirts to make themselves look cool. It's really annoying. I can count on one hand the amount of popular artis that are actually talented and will stand the test of time, the rest will fade by the end of next year when there's a new trend.

Jenn and I sort of made up. I apologized and so did she and we kind of talk now. But I'm not letting my gaurd down just yet. If she says one more bad thing about Lance I'll run her over with a steamroller.

Someone so horrible doesn't deserve to live. She just makes the lives of other's hell. She thinks she's God's gift to the world. More like the spawn of satan.